Who Wins the Battle{0}

It can be like a constant game of tug of war sometimes; the battle that you can have with yourself. It’s different for everyone and sometimes we win and sometimes we don’t. But I guess in the end, it’s not about winning or losing, it’s about finding the balance within you.

How do you quiet the disparaging voices? Where do you look to find your peace? Can you really debrain-wash yourself and stop the crusade?

Being on the proverbial rollar-coaster can threaten to get the best of you. Just when you think you have conquered a pattern it rears it’s ugly head and takes you spinning around another bend.  It doesn’t matter how aware you are of this particular annoyance, it has a mind of it’s own while you are left wandering how you could have submersed yourself in the madness again.

I guess in order to come out of the battle unscathed it’s worth a try. Maybe you should try to relinquish the control, stop being so hard on yourself and know that it’s all part of the process. Every lesson learned chisels away at the pattern. For every moment of self forgiveness brings you closer to freedom. For every bit of awareness brings out more self discovery.

Conquering your patterns is a process and the process is broken down into the many lessons you are supposed to learn from each one. Perhaps once you get through all the lessons attached to any given pattern is when you will stop fighting.

Just be honest with yourself. Go easy. Be lenient. Be okay with not being perfect. Embrace the stumbles. Brush yourself off when you fall and know that while some things don’t work out it opens you up to new and better things. Don’t sit around second guessing what others are doing, or planning, or what you wish they would do or plan. Know that your life is about you and the way to live in your life is to find your balance. Let go of your expectations. Let go of the outcome. Know that everything happens for a reason and that all your deliberate maneuvering will inevitably lead to happiness if you trust in it.

Don’t go to war. Be peaceful. There is no joy in battling.  And when you battle yourself there can be no winner.

You ready to throw your flag?