Which is It?

         3rd check in.  The last couple of days have been really long hours but it was also fun and everyone was really happy with the outcome.  Today I am at it again but I had another cool observation and I have to share. 
         Fate, coincidence, blink moment?  Accident, chance, serendipity?  On my right path?  Gifts from the Universe?  Does it matter?
         I was supposed to be in edit this morning re-cutting my documentary teaser.  Yesterday I was asked to stay on through next week in my current job which would mean working today when I was supposed to be editing.  Of course without hesitation, I agreed to stay on the job.  
        This spontaneous turn of events caused a little bit of stress. I was left mulling over the fact that I am committed to my project and the importance of the teaser.  But my intellect argued that by saying yes I was not only honoring my commitment (important) but I would have more money to put toward my project.  Hmmm.  Good point.
        I fell off to sleep with these thoughts.  Just keep thinking forward, my intention is for a perfect outcome, this is all going to work out perfectly and effortlessly.  It always does.   
        Sure enough, I woke up this morning to a message that my Director/Editor had to reschedule for tomorrow at 11.  Seriously?  Perfect!  
        I love it when this happens, these moments of being in synchronicity with the world.  I’ve come to some conclusions.  


1.  We should try not to stress.  For the most part, the outcome is the same anyway.  
2.  If we put it out there unconditionally, for the most part it does comes back to us.
3.  Taking risks can help us get to where we want to go.
4.  If we leap the net will appear.
5.  If we know our what, then the how will work itself out.


Alice:  I was just wondering if you could help me find my way. 
Cheshire Cat: Well that depends on where you want to get to. 
Alice: Oh, it really doesn’t matter, as long as… 
Cheshire Cat: Then it really doesn’t matter which way you go. 


Which way are you headed?


By Category: intention, love, spirituality, synchronicity

Duty Calls

“Without labor nothing prospers.”  ~Sophocles


2nd day in the for every no we are closer to that yes experiment.


I think it was Benjamin Franklin that said, “work breeds work”.  


Yesterday, a 16 hour pre-light.  


Today, 4 stages, 3 photographers, numerous sets, and the cameras will finally roll!  


Tomorrow, our final re-edit for the fund raising teaser for the documentary.  


Must continue with submissions of my query letter and proposal to more literary agents.  Did I mention my first submission received a response and they requested my manuscript?  


What magic lay ahead today?










By Category: benjamin franklin, Sophocles

Experiment in the Making

Wow!  How does a seed become a beautiful tree? How does a bird know that if they keep trying they will eventually fly?  How in the world did Bill Gates keep at it after thousands of failures?  I am trying to keep it in perspective.  I did some research and at least I am not alone.  I  may actually be on to something here. The epitome of an Entrepeneaur.  Failure, success, failure, failure, success, failure, success?  And Bill Gates isn’t the only one. There is some really good company in the pursuit of Entrepreneurism.  Walt Disney, Jerry Kaplan, Harry Truman, and even Abraham Lincoln.  They failed before they succeeded.  They didn’t give up.

Well if it’s true that for every no we are closer to that yes then I should be expecting a YES to bite me in the ass any minute now!

I’m ready for it!  I’ve stayed focused.  I’ve worked really hard.  I have glued myself to my determination and then I practiced letting go of it.  I have spent a long time trying to reinvent myself and trying to raise myself  above my own odds.  
Well today I got more bad news.  One of my pursuits rejected my idea.  But of course, as is my nature, I am not defeated.  I’m going to turn this into an experiment in hopes that it keeps me encouraged and holding stead fast to my mission.  I will also try my hardest to remember to approach everything with a sense of detachment and to remember to relinquish my need for control. 
I have been embarking on many expeditions and I have hit the proverbial brick wall one too many times.  Is there ever a light at the end of the tunnel that is not an actual train?  Does persistence really buy you success?  When? How? Why not now?
Okay so not right this second.  I get it.  Patience. I am going to document all this madness and face the no’s head on.  With you by my side I feel I can face anything that gets thrown at me.  Time will tell.  And I promise to acknowledge the accomplishments too.
Day 1:  The Recap.  My recent “No” vs. “Yes” list.  This is where I am now.  Let’s see where this all takes me.
1. NO: Spent 16 hours a day for almost a year trying to launch a company with my sister but it fell apart and I lost my investment and my relationship with my sister (we were estranged for most of our lives anyway).
2.  YES: Finally finished my book (yay) five years in the making.  Had an editor give me notes and I am now almost done with my 2nd draft.
3.  YES: Completed my book proposal.
4.  YES: Completed my first draft of my literary query letter.
5.  YES: Wrote a documentary web series.
6.  NO: Submitted the documentary idea to Kickstarter for funding but was rejected. Didn’t even get to send the teaser.
7.  YES: Shot a fund raising teaser for the documentary and will revise the edit this weekend.
To be honest when you take stock in the progress it doesn’t seem as bad.  But when you’re in it, it feels arduous and cumbersome. When the no’s are flying around like frisbees it’s hard to remember the Yes you might have gotten that morning or to believe that there could be another yes up ahead around the next corner.
The rest of this week I will be working on a job that has Annie Leibovitz (YAY!) as one of three photographers so I may not be able to check in but I will definitely share the updates as they transpire.
In the meantime I am going to get creative in my approaches and I am not going to give up.  The only way to find out is to keep moving forward.  I am going to keep asking.  And I am going to keep walking.
You coming?

By Category: Abraham Lincoln, Bill Gates, Entrepreneurism, Harry Truman, Jerry Kaplan, Walt Disney

Creative Expression

Perception, one of the oldest quantitative laws in psychology. Comprehension, our level of understanding.  Impression, a subconscious formation of opinion. Interpretation, a personal adaptation of explanation.  Expression, a declaration of communication.  Creativity, the opus of imagination.   

Creativity is an experience that is different for everyone.  It can be a spoken confession, a musical apology, or a danced acceptance.  Creation takes many forms and can be a written soliloquy, a spiritual prayer or a painted brighter future. 


The art of creating can lift someone out of depression, it can find laughter through tears, and success out of failure.  Creation is personal and can invoke confidence in defeat, determination out of loss, and persistence out of procrastination.


Creative expression can help us find answers to questions that are just beyond our reach.  It can help us manifest change and appreciation.  Creative expression can be silly and remind us of childhood or it can be serious and find cures for cancer.  It can create a new app for you cell phone and it can set you on a new path.


Is it possible to find the creative expression in all that we do?  Instead of going to work should we say we are going to play?  Should we decorate our play space with something that makes us smile?  I have a stack of Dr. Seuss books on my desk.  I call it my play station.  If you don’t sit at a desk for work play maybe find a trinket that reminds you of something that makes you smile.  


Creative expression makes the world a better place.


Finding our happy place opens us up to creating.  Whether it be teaching a first grade class, running a fortune five hundred company or responsibility for someones hedge fund.  If we’re happy, people around us will be happy and the best creation comes when we all pool together and know that team work, makes the dream work.  


What part are you playing?


By Category: confession, Creativity, psychology

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