Karma In a Bottle

Karma In a Bottle

The messages weren’t always clear. Life can get stormy and you’re drenched from walking under a broken umbrella. A tumultuous and wild ride at times and it takes everything you have to take cover. Like a tornado the dramatic ties that bind you will suck you back in. The patterns ringing in your ears at an incessant pitch that only the animals should be able to hear. 

An ancestor in the lineage must have had a bounty on their head but I didn’t believe in generational curses. And which is it anyway? Is karma based in repeating the archetypical habits of the descendants or is it repeating unpaid debts of a past life? 

If we take a good long look at who we are, we learn that we are either because of who came before us or in spite of them. They both carry the same burden. Karma is a boomerang no matter what you believe. 

I do the work, I study, I experiment, I go into my mind to see what I will find there. It never stops. There will always be more to learn, more to discover, more to overcome. Perfection doesn’t come from being a perfectionist and letting go isn’t falling.

The humility might look like moments of weakness but the triumphs have showed me I have acquired a lot of self-respect. I’ve never been one to accept a reality based on someone else’s model of the world. I recognized the world does not revolve around me. The weather will always change and sometimes it’s better to just get wet.

I’m no different then any of you. I have many debts to pay and I come in and out of consciousness. I get stuck in my mind and distracted by my innate tendencies of being a savior. Maybe that’s me trying to heal the past. Hoping to set those free who didn’t know enough in life to make different choices. They missed out on the messages. Their bottles, empty.

So I shall continue the quest the Angels have entrusted me with. Knowledge really is power.  I shall trust my influential mind to keep me on the right path. I will continue to find my way back to myself in hopes that my tangents bring more answers.  I will let my life flow like the water. 

You coming?

 

Theories of a Karmic Childhood

Theories of a Karmic Childhood

Which is it? Do we choose our parents or don’t we? And if we don’t pick our family do they pick us? 

From where I sit, it doesn’t matter. I’m older now. Looking back on the proverbial years of my youth I can still hear the anger and the rebellion. To make sense of it all my mind tells me I was taken from the wrong family at the hospital. But even if I truly were someone else’s child, did I end up here as my own karmic contribution to right a past retribution?

Even now as I practice the art of being the detached observer, I can’t stop myself from wondering, what’s the point? 

I won’t get to confront the accusers who blamed me for coming into this life. And no one ever seemed to know the truth so my theories of a karmic childhood seem to leave me predisposed. 

I was always stuck in the middle of it. That has to account for something. It must be significant in some way. I always recognized my soul as old. Many lifetimes of mishaps and misdemeanors just hungry for attention. Growing up too fast had nothing to do with it. In childhood the gifts were a burden and neglected. But thank God the Archangels don’t give up and as the light reaches through you, the darkness dissipates.

My rants shall hopefully bring me closer to the more detailed interpretations of where the past meets the future.

What is your life saying to you?

 

Karma Rides Again

Karma Rides Again

Where do you go when you go away? And I don’t mean away on vacation or for an afternoon walk. I mean where do you go when you step away from who you thought you were?

Why do you go back to where the patterns of your past have a hold on you? It makes me wonder where I’ve been all this time.

What do you say to yourself that helps you break free?  I find myself wanting to revisit what I learned to figure out if the lessons mattered.

When you’ve been away from the page as long as I have, you can be intimidated by the empty space. If you’re like me, it is all an eye opener.  We all know change is scary. And I’ve been through enough changes in the last 3 years to feel upside down now.

How honest will we be with ourselves? Well I’m optimistic that with every truth I utter I will come closer to salvation. Karma rides again and I must be that much closer to 0 balance.

I hope my bright and cheery disposition wins even if sometimes behind closed doors I’m crying. I’m human. I’m not a bulldozer of strength that can withstand all the trials and tribulations I find myself in. 

I have figured out there’s really good news. We are a cornacopia of resources. Just like for every physical ailment there is an emotional attachment, for every circumstance there is a lesson. 

I’ve decided my best way to tackle the vast empty space is to take each line one at a time and put one word at a time in it’s place.  Like a card reading, it’s time to investigate the moments in comparison to the past that created it. 

Here is where we will set new intentions for the future. An experiment in trust, humility and integrity. Using the lunar new year as a celebration of life, we set our resolution. There is strength in recognition. Power in prayer. Answers in meditation. Art in doing nothing. Epiphanies in silence.

Time to get out of the thinking mind and into the doing state of existence.

What will your explorations say about you? 

 

 

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